BLACKPINK’s Rosé’s Revealed She Dressed Like a ‘Grandma’ to Secretly Visit Her ‘Toxic’ Ex—All of Her Rumored Relationships

With the release of her new album, Rosé’s getting real about the burdens of toxic relationships. The BLACKPINK member got candid about her past exes and fans are trying to connect the dots.

For the most part, dating is a taboo in K-pop—even BLACKPINK couldn’t say much about their personal lives in the past. But now, Rosé’s opening up about what really inspired her new album Rosie. Rosé reminisced on the creative process and reviewing songs to Zane Lowe on Apple Music Radio. “I would actually look at it and be like, ‘Oh my god, this was when I was going through the worst time of my life.’ I would be like, ‘I remember that tour, I had the biggest fight…you know…with the ex. I look so good considering how heartbroken I was.'”

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Who is BLACKPINK’s Rosé dating?

Rosé has never revealed the names of the people she’s dated in the past, but during her Rosie album press cycle, she’s explained that she likes to date. “I’m like, more of a relationship-er, which is why people say ‘Rosie, you’re still so young’ – Like, I’m very serious about dating,” she told i-D. She also told Zane Lowe that her song “gameboy” was about a past ex. “I’d never like the person to know about it but I would talk about it so much. Do not want to give credit to the person, but I’d talk about it and it’s just the easiest. It was the easiest. I needed to get it off my chest. And we talk about it all the time, they’d be like, ‘What are you talking about? Are we talking about the ex? The Ex?’ ‘Yeah, yeah, again.’ And they’d be like, ‘Okay, Rosé, do it again.” I’d be like…Yeah. So it wasn’t that difficult. Yeah, it was good. It was easy.'”

In an interview with Call Her Daddy’s Alex Cooper, Rosé confessed that she would wear disguises to keep her relationships a secret. She “studied how elderly women would dress on the street,” and would proceed to same kinds of clothes, plus a short dark wig, and wear it to visit her then-boyfriend.

“I would go to his house, because we can’t go anywhere,” she explained. “I would travel that way just in case somebody [saw me].”

“For a while in my house I had a whole section of grandma clothes, because I went wild. I just ordered, like, light-blue flowery long skirts.” She recalled she did it for “at least six months,” because she was “so committed to keep the secret.”

 She also reflected “toxic” ex. I was young,” she told Cooper, laughing. “It was just not a good match — but we liked each other, so we just kept it going for a bit.”